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Tuesday 25 December 2012

Assalammualaikum
dear diary
this week is the match point for person who we called as student.
dah nak habis dah satu sem dekat uitm ni... how fast time running right?
everything that i called life, i have been learn here
ada gembira
ada sedih
ada kecewa
ada rindu
ada takut
ada semangat
ada kekuatan
ada kekurangan
life is never perfect when we have to go around just like a tyre
sometime we goes up, sometime we goes down
but on what type of tyre? we are dicided it by our ownself.
its will become worst when we choose to be on lorry's tyre which more difficult to piggey the heavy things then a bicycle's tyre which much better.
dekat sni sya blaja untuk mengenali, menghormati, dan menyayangi org
menyukai org mmg satu yg mengembirakan tp bila kita tau hakikat disebaliknya sngat memedihkan untuk kita menerima but then i try to let him go.
as for me if u thinked she can care bout u, can understand u, can share your problem n be with u when u are happy or crying .ok then ill let u go to her
even she is my friend n i would not figth with her because i know i will lose because both of you are means together while i'm just like a parasite between both of you. dear mr.A if i could say that i like u and i want to know u better, i wish that oneday i could be someone special for u... but i didn't get start it yet i already lost u. how frustated im. but its ok i will still pray for your happiness 
klu ada jodoh xkan kemana kan. ill wait for u  
for my dear friend i hope u will care him for me as well.
we will be friend forever in shaa allah :)
ill let him go to u and i would step back from now on.
hopes you guys happy
for now i want to focus just on my study
i need to struggle for my final
i need to throw all of useless things on my mind.
im realy sorry if i had done someting wrong to all my friends.
pray for me ok :)
FIGHTING!!!

Wednesday 31 October 2012

oh my heart!


Assalammualaikum dear diary...
so long i leave you alone without any news
but now i'm back with a problem.
i don't know where i can share my problem...
u are the only place that i can share my problem without any arguement...
i feel sooo sad... :'(
i don't know why i feel this... 
maybe becoz i'm falling to someone but he does't take note about that...
i tried so many time to give him the hint about my feeling towards him... but he keep asking me the same questions and of course i would not admit it... its so embarrassing u know! if he know that i like him...
its looked like i'm desprate to get his love... untill now i keep waiting for u to text me... arggg! >.<
or i should just forget about u... i should care for myself... i should stop waiting for u... i should stop liking u... before its become more worst... u make me feel heartless... i lost my spirit... why i become like this dear d? 
what should i do when i closed my eyes i see his face? when i on my fb i keep stalked his profile?
Ya Allah... please give a strength to put a side this feeling! let me focus to my future... 

"sesungguhnye mencintai Allah swt itu lebih baik dari mencintai manusia kerna Allah swt tidak akan pernah mengecewakan kite dibandingkan dengan manusia"

jodoh pertemuan itu ditangan tuhan... sesungguhnya mulai saat ini aku redha dan bertawakal kepada Allah dengan siapa dan bila aku akan bersatu...insyallah :)